Wow i haven't wrote in a long time. Well here's a quick update....

Well school started. Its going pretty well, considering my grades are iffy. Also i have been writing alot and thinking alot and here is my newest poem...

Please O' Lord, Use my pain and suffering for your glory,
Let it help me tell the old ancient story.
Help me to reach a heart, so cold as mine once was.
And Bring them to your side, Just Because.
Just because you love them, and  loved me.
For this I thank-you eternally.
Let me be your servant Lord, guide me where to go.
I'll travel anywhere, and search high and low.
I want to answer your calling God,
I want to live for you, not be named a fraud.
I want all to see your love
And Just know that there is a God above.
You love them Lord and what them to be your children,
But some hurt so much, that they can't trust and give in.
Let  me  point them in the direction for them to see, it is possible to be set free,
Just as you let someone show me.
God i will always kneel at your throne,
where I lay broken and bare, I  come before you alone.
Lord Show me where i should be,
And I'll go in search of what we need from me.
Please O' Lord, Use my pain and suffering for your glory,
Let it help me tell the old ancient story.
Help me to reach a heart, so cold as mine once was.
I'll Live or Die for you, just because!

Hey, Today i went to like my schools orientation thingy. it was really kool...I think i'm going to like my classes this year, but im alil nervous because if i don't get ALL a's i can't go to this school anymore. i really don't want to go to back to public school, but i don't want to be so overwhelmed, i'm already overwhelmed bye my mother. I guess im selvefish, and i have a bad attitude and i have a "heart problem" she was making fun of my school because today they said what they really care about is the condition of our heart, and i really hate it when she does stuff like that, at least she didn't call me fat again, i hate when she does that. and she does it all the time...it annoying. I haven't read my bible in 2 days...i know i shood but i keep on getting distracted and keep getting mad because she wont leave me alone. ahhh...

I'm so tired of my family, i really don't like them. I wish i didn't have them but  God put me in this family for a reason, or so im told. Well i really got to go... well i gotta go.

wow i've writen alot today, but don't worry ill keep it shortier most of the time, well right now im alil tired and i really don't know why, maybe cuz it's late...lol well i am gonna go try to talk to someone so i don't do something i want to...

 well niight

Hey,

 i just got back from youth group...and im like bolling my eyes out, because one of my very close friends is leaving tomorrow morning and this will be the last time i see her for over 3 months, and i know its not that long but for me it is, i don't know what im going to do with out her, i miss her and she isn't even gone yet...wow im pethitic i know.

well on a much happier not i start school friday. funfun!

ok well night ya'll

Hey, Hey!

   It Wednesday, and yeah this is my new Xanga! thats all i wanted to say i got to go! Peace